Big things are on the horizon...

In just 28 days I'll be sitting through my first day of graduate school. That means that in LESS than 4 weeks, I'll be living in Carbondale... away from my husband and my dog. The thought of this makes me sad and anxious.

On top of the emotional difficulty that I'll surely be experiencing in reference to the aforementioned realities, I'll be dealing with the stress of school, and getting used to living with a roommate. After being married for 4 years (this Wednesday is our anniversary!), I'm thinking that this transition is going to take some getting used to. With less than 4 weeks left here in Mattoon, I'm not willing to spend any time apart from Justin & Lucien. Another thing, our administrators keep reminding us that the class schedule is tentative. This is probably fine with some people, but I'm a type A personality. I like to have things planned, set in stone. How can I plan when I will see Justin, knowing that our test dates may shift? Justin's schedule changes today, so going forward he'll have Wednesday, Thursday, & Friday off, which will be a nice change. This means that he'll be able to come see me in Carbondale! This makes me really happy, but then I worry about who will take care of Lucien. My apartment doesn't allow pets on property and it makes me feel guilty that Lucien will be all alone. I know that he gets lonely, and it's really not fair to him either... :(

I'd love to plan some races, but what will my study schedule be like? Will I feasibly be able to fit long runs into an already intense schedule? Who will I run with? Will I be training all by myself? How will I stay motivated without my runner friends there to push me?

Please don't get me wrong - I'm blessed to have been accepted into this program and I'm very excited. I'm just know that some sacrifices are going to have to be made to accomplish this. Reality is that I fear the unknown. I know I'll overcome this fear in time, but right now is not that time.